Cue lights! Cue streamers! CUE THE EXCITEMENT!
This is the last post on the 30 day challenge, which, if you’ve been keeping up with this site (that was sarcasm), that means that I’ve completed my first internet challenge!
(And the crowd goes wild!!!)
Day 30: One thing you’re excited about
I think, in my usual (as of late manner) it’s much easier to say what I’m not excited about, but that would be a bit drab and pessimistic. And, I don’t I’d get a lot of happy readers that way.
So. What am I excited about?
The fact that, even though I’ve been completely stressed out of my mind and just want to punch a wall and eat lots and lots (and lots and lots) of chocolate and consume boba, I have yet to snap at someone. That, in itself, is such a big accomplishment.
If you knew me prior to this year, you’d say that I’ve grown up. Like, taking my first steps, learning to use the john, and eat spaghetti without swimming in it, proud. For a 5′ & 1 3/4″ there’s quite a bit of pent up anger, frustration and hate seething through my veins.
I guess this change of events might be attributed to my whole Zen, breathe twice before you speak, frame of mind, but I’ve been pretty… lax? as of late. Maybe that’s the description, or maybe, I just don’t give a fuck. Either way, I’ve found, retrospectively, that I haven’t been a raging (well, somewhat) psychopath trying to make everyone happy.
That’s one thing. I’ve realized that you can’t appease everyone, and that trying to is only going to make your hair turn grey (no offense to pepper heads. I hope I look as good as you do when the time comes) prematurely and really isn’t healthy. Maybe I’m being selfish and thinking that… hey, maybe I don’t have to keep explaining myself when you are just going to keep pushing me down. Negativity is such a bad thing to feed upon.
Oh – to anyone that has stopped by in the last few weeks and see that I haven’t posted — I haven’t forsaken this site!! I’ve just been busy moving into my apartment and getting back into the swing of school, personal, and fraternal life. And, let me tell you, that is a whole ball of mess that I’m not altogether (although, probably will) excited to write about.
Anyhow… I’m squeezing in this explanatory post as I’m waiting for my class to start.. and as it seems to be starting soon, so…